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orang Jokaw alias jawa

Dibalik Nama-nama JawaMemilih nama untuk seorang anak bukanpersoalan sederhana.Di balik nama-nama, selalu terkandungdoa dan harapan dari orang tua untuk masadepan si anak.Nah, nama pada pria Jawa sesungguhnyamemiliki “tujuan” yang palingjelas untuk dipahami, harapanorangtuanya, agar anaknya kelak bisa sesuaiyang diharapkan.
Contohnya :
Pandai menanam bunga, diberi nama Rosman.
Pandai membaiki mobil, diberi nama Karman.
Pandai main golf, Parman.
Pandai dalam korespondensi, Suratman.
Gagah perkasa, Suparman.
Kuat dalam berjalan, Wakiman.
Berani bertanya, Asman.
Ahli membuat kue, Paiman.
Pandai berdagang, Saliman.
Pandai melukis, Saniman.
Agar jadi orang kaya, Sugiman.
Agar besar nanti pandai cari muka, Yasman
Suka makan toge goreng, Togiman
Selalu ketagihan, Tuman
Selalu sibuk terus, Bisiman
Biar pinter main game …. Giman
Biar bisa sering cuti …. Sutiman
Biar jadi juragan sate …. Satiman
Biar jadi juragan trasi …. Tarsiman
Biar pinter memecahkan problem …. Sukarman
Biar kalau ujian ndak usah mengulang…. Herman
Biar pinter bikin jus …. Yusman
Biar jadi orang yang berwibawa …. Jaiman
Biar jadi pemain musik …. Basman
Biar awet muda …. Boiman
Biar pinter berperang …. Warman
Biar jadi orang Bali …. Nyoman
Biar jadi orang Sunda …. Maman
Biar lincah seperti monyet …. Hanoman
Biar jadi orang Belanda …. Kuman
Biar tetep tinggal di Jogja …. Sleman
Biar jadi tukang sepatu handal …. Soleman
Biar tetep bisa jalan walau ndak pakemesin …. DelmanHehehe..

suzuki shimao again….. yeah.

What is the Secret to Suzuki Shimao’s Success?

Kusanagi Tsuyoshi plays Suzuki Shimao – a simple man who runs a small screw factory handed down from his father. He doesn’t have much money, but he has a strong sense of justice and a belief in looking out for other people. In the beginning of this drama, he is saving so that he can go on a trip with his mother, but he ends up having to lend the money to one of his workers who is in trouble with a loan shark. Luckily, he happens to win a trip for two to Hawaii shortly after and goes with his mother.

In Hawaii, he meets a rich Japanese woman named Kaori who he accidentally pushes into a swimming pool. In apology, he invites her to have dinner with him and his mother that night. Shimao and his mother don’t expect a rich girl like Kaori to actually accept an invitation from the likes of them, but Kaori actually comes and has a good time with them. (Shimao has fallen in love with Kaori of course.) Kaori forgets her wallet that night, and Shimao goes to her hotel to return it to her.

At the hotel, Shimao meets Kaori’s boyfriend (…?) Takayanagi Tooru, who is a famous Japanese millionaire. He has breakfast with them in Takayanagi’s private suite and Shimao feels the huge economic gap between himself and Takayanagi. It is as if they live in a ‘different world’. He is especially jealous that Takayanagi has a girl like Kaori. He is offered a large reward for returning the wallet, which he refuses because he has decided that he doesn’t need money to be happy. He leaves, accepting only Takayanagi’s business card.

Back in Japan, Shimao returns to his screw factory to find all his equipment being taken away to be sold. Apparently the factory has gone bankrupt because the man he left in charge of the factory’s finances betrayed him. When Shimao’s mother sees that the factory is closing, she goes into shock and they take her to the hospital.

His mother’s condition turns out to be critical, and she needs to have a 10 million yen surgery in order to survive. Of course, Shimao doesn’t have this money, so he goes to every bank in town and tries to borrow 10 million yen. He doesn’t have any luck, and his mother passes away before anything can be done. Shimao is convinced that if he were a rich man, his mother would still be alive. He changes his mind about not needing money to be happy, and is suddenly desperate to become rich. So, he goes to see Takayanagi, whose business card he still has with him.

He goes to Takayanagi’s e-business company, “Frontier” but isn’t allowed to see Takayanagi without an appointment as he is just too important. Shimao gets a job as a security guard in the building in hopes of getting closer to Takayanagi. (And besides, he needs a job anyway.) He is well-liked by his supervisor who drinks together with him at night. Always drinking in a separate corner of the same bar are the top employees who work close by with Takayanagi. Among their numbers is also Kaori, who Shimao is still in love with. The high-priced wine and food that the high employees drink is in sharp contrast to the cheap stuff the security guards have, and Shimao once again feels that they live in a ‘different world’. He wonders if he will ever get to meet Takayanagi, and learn the secret to becoming wealthy.

The deciding event comes when the Frontier company is doing a live webcast of an important soccer game. Just before the webcast, their server suddenly falls victim to a nasty virus and goes down. None of the programmers there can seem to fix it and the game is about to begin. At the same time, Shimao happens to be making his rounds as security guard and notices the computer trouble that the high executives are having. He quickly sits down at a computer, opens a command prompt window, and begins typing commands up a storm. It turns out that Shimao used to be a computer programming genius when he was young, but his business partner betrayed him and he ended up carrying on the family screw business instead. Shimao fixes the company’s server just before the game begins and everyone in the office is overjoyed.

Takayanagi takes notice of this, and Shimao is instantly promoted from security guard to one of the top-level executives who works close with Takayanagi. He finally gets to meet Takayanagi again, who teaches him the secret to his success – which is being an uncaring @$$hole who doesn’t look out for anyone other than himself. In order to test Shimao, Takayanagi gives him difficult jobs such as cutting off relations with smaller businesses which aren’t helping to benefit Frontier. At first, Shimao tries to be uncaring, but he can’t do it and instead tries to succeed by helping the little people to be more successful. This always gets him in a lot of trouble, but turns out well in the end.

So, it is a constant struggle between Takayanagi’s uncaring ways and Shimao’s sense of justice and helping others which is the basic conflict of this drama. Takayanagi’s ways continue to make him more and more rich, but Shimao’s sometimes bring about unexpected outcomes which exceed Takayanagi’s original plans. Takayanagi gradually begins to dislike Shimao, and chooses to watch him from afar and to see what interesting results Shimao can bring about. Kaori also grows closer to Shimao as she is swayed by his kindness and begins to dislike Takayanagi’s cold ways.

This drama can easily be read as anti-capitalist propaganda if you go that deep, but it is mostly just posing the age-old question of, “How important is money?” This drama would conclude that kindness and caring for others is more important. It’s a simple story of a simple man who has dreams of a better life, but somehow this drama just has a feeling of magic and wonder to it that makes it fun to watch. It’s probably mostly the background music and some of the camera work. You can see what I mean just by watching the clip below. Yeah – the background music does the trick.

I was hooked from the first episode of this drama, and it might just be one of the best of the season.

suzuki shimao again….. yeah.

What is the Secret to Suzuki Shimao’s Success?

Kusanagi Tsuyoshi plays Suzuki Shimao – a simple man who runs a small screw factory handed down from his father. He doesn’t have much money, but he has a strong sense of justice and a belief in looking out for other people. In the beginning of this drama, he is saving so that he can go on a trip with his mother, but he ends up having to lend the money to one of his workers who is in trouble with a loan shark. Luckily, he happens to win a trip for two to Hawaii shortly after and goes with his mother.

In Hawaii, he meets a rich Japanese woman named Kaori who he accidentally pushes into a swimming pool. In apology, he invites her to have dinner with him and his mother that night. Shimao and his mother don’t expect a rich girl like Kaori to actually accept an invitation from the likes of them, but Kaori actually comes and has a good time with them. (Shimao has fallen in love with Kaori of course.) Kaori forgets her wallet that night, and Shimao goes to her hotel to return it to her.

At the hotel, Shimao meets Kaori’s boyfriend (…?) Takayanagi Tooru, who is a famous Japanese millionaire. He has breakfast with them in Takayanagi’s private suite and Shimao feels the huge economic gap between himself and Takayanagi. It is as if they live in a ‘different world’. He is especially jealous that Takayanagi has a girl like Kaori. He is offered a large reward for returning the wallet, which he refuses because he has decided that he doesn’t need money to be happy. He leaves, accepting only Takayanagi’s business card.

Back in Japan, Shimao returns to his screw factory to find all his equipment being taken away to be sold. Apparently the factory has gone bankrupt because the man he left in charge of the factory’s finances betrayed him. When Shimao’s mother sees that the factory is closing, she goes into shock and they take her to the hospital.

His mother’s condition turns out to be critical, and she needs to have a 10 million yen surgery in order to survive. Of course, Shimao doesn’t have this money, so he goes to every bank in town and tries to borrow 10 million yen. He doesn’t have any luck, and his mother passes away before anything can be done. Shimao is convinced that if he were a rich man, his mother would still be alive. He changes his mind about not needing money to be happy, and is suddenly desperate to become rich. So, he goes to see Takayanagi, whose business card he still has with him.

He goes to Takayanagi’s e-business company, “Frontier” but isn’t allowed to see Takayanagi without an appointment as he is just too important. Shimao gets a job as a security guard in the building in hopes of getting closer to Takayanagi. (And besides, he needs a job anyway.) He is well-liked by his supervisor who drinks together with him at night. Always drinking in a separate corner of the same bar are the top employees who work close by with Takayanagi. Among their numbers is also Kaori, who Shimao is still in love with. The high-priced wine and food that the high employees drink is in sharp contrast to the cheap stuff the security guards have, and Shimao once again feels that they live in a ‘different world’. He wonders if he will ever get to meet Takayanagi, and learn the secret to becoming wealthy.

The deciding event comes when the Frontier company is doing a live webcast of an important soccer game. Just before the webcast, their server suddenly falls victim to a nasty virus and goes down. None of the programmers there can seem to fix it and the game is about to begin. At the same time, Shimao happens to be making his rounds as security guard and notices the computer trouble that the high executives are having. He quickly sits down at a computer, opens a command prompt window, and begins typing commands up a storm. It turns out that Shimao used to be a computer programming genius when he was young, but his business partner betrayed him and he ended up carrying on the family screw business instead. Shimao fixes the company’s server just before the game begins and everyone in the office is overjoyed.

Takayanagi takes notice of this, and Shimao is instantly promoted from security guard to one of the top-level executives who works close with Takayanagi. He finally gets to meet Takayanagi again, who teaches him the secret to his success – which is being an uncaring @$$hole who doesn’t look out for anyone other than himself. In order to test Shimao, Takayanagi gives him difficult jobs such as cutting off relations with smaller businesses which aren’t helping to benefit Frontier. At first, Shimao tries to be uncaring, but he can’t do it and instead tries to succeed by helping the little people to be more successful. This always gets him in a lot of trouble, but turns out well in the end.

So, it is a constant struggle between Takayanagi’s uncaring ways and Shimao’s sense of justice and helping others which is the basic conflict of this drama. Takayanagi’s ways continue to make him more and more rich, but Shimao’s sometimes bring about unexpected outcomes which exceed Takayanagi’s original plans. Takayanagi gradually begins to dislike Shimao, and chooses to watch him from afar and to see what interesting results Shimao can bring about. Kaori also grows closer to Shimao as she is swayed by his kindness and begins to dislike Takayanagi’s cold ways.

This drama can easily be read as anti-capitalist propaganda if you go that deep, but it is mostly just posing the age-old question of, “How important is money?” This drama would conclude that kindness and caring for others is more important. It’s a simple story of a simple man who has dreams of a better life, but somehow this drama just has a feeling of magic and wonder to it that makes it fun to watch. It’s probably mostly the background music and some of the camera work. You can see what I mean just by watching the clip below. Yeah – the background music does the trick.

I was hooked from the first episode of this drama, and it might just be one of the best of the season.

Inspiring Dorama of Entrepreneurship

Koi Ni Ochitara

August 7th, 2006

Nah..kalo dorama ini berkisah tentang kehidupan bisnis, antara orang yang berbisnis dengan menganggap “everything can be bought by money” dan orang yang berbisnis dengan perasaan…

Takayanagi adalah president dari perusahaan Frontier. Dia selalu menganggap segala sesuatu dapat dibeli dengan uang. bahkan prinsipnya itu menular juga ke anak buahnya. Disisi lain, ada seorang yang selalu berprinsip untuk membuat orang lain senang, tentunya dengan ikut merasakan perasaaan orang lain. dia adalah Suzuki Shimao (Shima==Island dan O==laki2/pemuda).

Suatu ketika, perusahaan kecil milik keluarga Shimao mengalami kebangkrutan akibat penipuan dari akuntannya. kejadian itu juga membuat Ibu Shimao shock hingga akhirnya meninggal.

Shimao bertekad untuk menjadi orang kaya seperti Takayanagi tanpa melepaskan prinsip hidupnya. Usahanya dimulai dari awal dengan menjadi satpam di Frontier (dengan tujuan bisa belajar bisnis dengan Takayanagi). Akhirnya Shimao pun bisa bertemu dengan Takayanagi setelah dia berhasil menggemparkan seluruh karyawan dengan memperbaiki error yang ada pada launching sistem terbaru Frontier (bagaimana bisa, seorang Satpam sangat jago ngoding???? ;p)

setelah bertemu Takayangi, Shimao pun menceritakan tujuan menemuinya. Namun, karena Takayanagi menyadari bahwa prinsip mereka sangat bertentangan, dia pun menguji Shimao dengan berbagai kasus berat yang sangat melawan nuraninya, spt memutuskan hubungan bisnis dengan perusahaan kecil dsb. Tak disangka, Shimao berhasil menyelesaikan semua kasus2 tersebut dengan sifatnya yang penuh kasih sayang. Banyak perusahaan-perusahaan lain yang tertarik untuk bekerjasama dengan Shimao, bahkan karyawan2 Frontier pun akhirnya tertarik dengan prinsip hidup Shimao.

Konflik terjadi ketika Takayanagi merasa terancam dengan keberadaan Shimao. Takayanagi mengangkat Shimao kedalam board of director, namun selalu menolak program dari Shimao. Sampai suatu ketika, Shimao hilang kesabarannya dan memutuskan untuk keluar dari Frontier dan bekerja sama dengan perusahaan Lyold Brother. Sejak saat itu, Shimao kehilangan prinsip hidupnya. Dalam hari yang sama ketika dia keluar dari Frontier, dia datang kembali ke Frontier untuk menjadi President disana (Takayanagi pun tersingkir dari Frontier…kasiiaan..;p). Namun Shimao ternyata salah dengan meninggalkan prinsipnya. dia hanya dimanfaatkan kepopulerannya oleh Lyold Brother…

Lalu, gimana akhirnya nasib Takayanagi, Shimao dan Frontier?? silahkan tonton saja kesebelas episode Koi Ni Ochitara !!!! ga bakal rugi koq…;p

diambil dari http://nasikhin.wordpress.com/tag/movies/

Inspiring books of nationalism

For God and Country–Faith and Patriotism Under Fire
By James Yee, former U.S. Army Muslim Chaplain at Guantanamo Bay

This is a riveting account of a young Chinese American graduate of West Point, class of 1990, who became a Muslim Chaplain assigned to the Joint Task Force Guantanamo in 2003. At the end of the eleventh month of what was to be his six-month tour of duty, he is arriving at the Jacksonville Naval Air Station, dreaming of soon being reunited with his wife and daughter. But, back at Gitmo, a two-star general has other plans for Captain Yee.

The atmosphere in post 9/11 US was, at best, hostile toward all Muslims. In our military, that feeling was fostered by our government and even more intense. Virtually all Muslims were automatically suspected to be supporters of Al Qaeda. Guantanamo was chosen by our government as the site for a prison compound to house and interrogate any prisoners captured during our war on terror. Conveniently, it was not US territory and, therefore, beyond the purview of our laws and treaties prohibiting the use of torture when extracting intelligence from prisoners. Also, the prisoners held there were ruled to be not prisoners of war, subject to the Geneva Conventions, but enemy combatants. In light of this background, we can see how the distorted military minds of his associates and some of his superiors could prepare and level charges against a fellow officer who was actually a patriotic career officer.

Arriving at Jacksonville NAS, prepared for two weeks leave and reunion with his family, Captain Yee found himself charged with serious violations of the Uniform Code of Military Justice (UCMJ). He was arrested, placed in the brig at Jacksonville, and started a period of seventy-six days of solitary confinement under charges which, if he were found guilty, could result in the death penalty.

As time heavily wore on in confinement, Captain Yee obtained some excellent legal representation. And, as the prosecution attempted to develop its case against Yee, the charges, including espionage, began to prove groundless. In the meantime, the trial moved to Fort Benning, GA, and Captain Yee, released from confinement, finally reunited with his family.

Ultimately the day came that all charges were found groundless and the case was dismissed. Unfortunately, a vindictive commander did not accept defeat that easily, and new, lesser charges were brought. These charges could be handled by proceedings under Article 15 of the UCMJ. Major General Gregory Miller, the commander of the Joint Task Force Guantanamo and instigator of the original charges, would now be not only the leveler of the charges, but also the officer who would conduct the hearing. What a stacked deck! The second hearing was held at Fort Benning and Captain Yee, although actually innocent, was found guilty as charged.

Fortunately the UCMJ provides an appeal process which Captain Yee successfully used. Ostensibly the case was closed. Captain Yee should have been able to resume his career as an Army Chaplain. Ultimately, though, Captain Yee personally found it necessary to resign his commission and leave his service of the country to which he was devoted. The military service and some of its senior officers did not accept defeat easily when their groundless and unjust charges were dismissed. Captain Yee never received an apology for the unjust seventy-six day imprisonment and the familial inconvenience.

James B. Burkholder
Colonel, US Army, Retired

UAS ku di kampus biru……

Salam merdeka….. assalamualaikum……

Alhamdulillah satu ujian telah terlewati lagi, dengan lega tentunya, karena bisa ku lewati dengan persiapan lumayan (tapi masih gak puas jika klo inget si “rona merah senja” yg begitu indah berbagi sinarnya). apa yang ku khawatirkan ternyata tak terbukti, gak tes lisan ternyata. Untung bapaknya rada sibuk, jadi soalnya disamain dengan ujian yang reguler.
Biomanajemen…. mungkin aku kurang nyambung dengan kuliah ini, tapi prinsipnya ngerti sih…. minimal beberapa hal bisa buat aku terenyuh.
ada tentang bagaimana eksploitasi gila sumberdaya alam indonesia, setelah habis si perusahaan seenaknya menyatakan gak sanggup untuk melakukan reklamasi/recovery…. padahal sebegitu besar keuntungan yang mereka keruk dari sana. yang tinggal sampahnya aja.
pengen nangis bgt, ngliatnya. udah digarong…. eh birokrat kita gak kalah jahannam juga. parahnya pemerintahan indonesia.
[OOT], jadi rada gak pede nulisnya nih…. diperhatiin dwi, postingan saya dimilis juga di komentarin aneh-aneh. sedikit rada gak pede, jangan-jangan kekurang pahaman saya sampe saya memberikan analisis gak rasional dan menjengkelkan. semoga enggak sih….

[mode pede increase “ON”] balik ke biman, alhamdulillah biman diambil bersamaan dengan matakuliah yang “bau”nya sama, Bau-bau manajemen gitu deh……

gak jelas sebenarnya yang mau disampe’in. tapi lumayan lah…. curhat.

insyaallah di postingan slanjutnya(kapan-kapan, entah kapan) bakal ngungkapin curhatan saat UTS. YO wis lah…. wassalam.

UAS ku di kampus biru……

Salam merdeka….. assalamualaikum……

Alhamdulillah satu ujian telah terlewati lagi, dengan lega tentunya, karena bisa ku lewati dengan persiapan lumayan (tapi masih gak puas jika klo inget si “rona merah senja” yg begitu indah berbagi sinarnya). apa yang ku khawatirkan ternyata tak terbukti, gak tes lisan ternyata. Untung bapaknya rada sibuk, jadi soalnya disamain dengan ujian yang reguler.
Biomanajemen…. mungkin aku kurang nyambung dengan kuliah ini, tapi prinsipnya ngerti sih…. minimal beberapa hal bisa buat aku terenyuh.
ada tentang bagaimana eksploitasi gila sumberdaya alam indonesia, setelah habis si perusahaan seenaknya menyatakan gak sanggup untuk melakukan reklamasi/recovery…. padahal sebegitu besar keuntungan yang mereka keruk dari sana. yang tinggal sampahnya aja.
pengen nangis bgt, ngliatnya. udah digarong…. eh birokrat kita gak kalah jahannam juga. parahnya pemerintahan indonesia.
[OOT], jadi rada gak pede nulisnya nih…. diperhatiin dwi, postingan saya dimilis juga di komentarin aneh-aneh. sedikit rada gak pede, jangan-jangan kekurang pahaman saya sampe saya memberikan analisis gak rasional dan menjengkelkan. semoga enggak sih….

[mode pede increase “ON”] balik ke biman, alhamdulillah biman diambil bersamaan dengan matakuliah yang “bau”nya sama, Bau-bau manajemen gitu deh……

gak jelas sebenarnya yang mau disampe’in. tapi lumayan lah…. curhat.

insyaallah di postingan slanjutnya(kapan-kapan, entah kapan) bakal ngungkapin curhatan saat UTS. YO wis lah…. wassalam.

refleksi akhir taon….


Ya diri, kenapa gundah melandamu lagi…. Mengapa sesak ini muncul lagi…
Mengapa resah yang pernah siggah lalu pergi, datang menghampiri….

Ya diri, apakah kelemahan ku tak dapat mengambil ibroh dari yang kualami….
ataukah kelalaian ku dalam ikhtiar…
ataukah ketidak-berkahan amal-amal ku karena begitu mudahnya aku lupa pada Nya.

Wahai diri, mengapa dipenghujung tahun 2006 ini…. 23 tahun sejak kau pertamakali melihat dunia. masih saja kau enggan belajar tentang arti hidup ini….
Mengapa hingga kini, kau diperbudak dirimu sendiri dengan segala pintanya…
Mengapa masih saja enggan yang meraja saat hatimu berteriak… khawatir menjadi sesosok batu tanpa siraman sinarnya, dari sang mentari sabda……
Mengapa masih begitu mudah kau wajarkan hatimu untuk mengharap cinta selain cintaNya, mengemis perhatian selain ridhoNya, mencari sandaran selain belai indah KasihNya….?
Apakah ini yang disebut kedewasaan? Atau kau memang tidak pernah beranjak dewasa?
Atau kau selama ini salah kira, tertipu dan merasa dirimu kini telah dewasa….

Wahai Rabb yang tidak pernah habis pancar sinar kasihnya…. disini ada hambamu…. yang telah sekian lama lalai dan lupa, tidak mengangkat tangan lalu berdoa…. memohon ampunMu dari segala kecongkakan dan kelemahan diri…
Wahai dzat yang tidak pernah tidur dan terlupa, yang menguasai dan berkehendak memberi kesadaran bagi diri ini….
betapa takut aku menghadapi malam, khawatir fajar tak pernah menjelang
betapa takut aku menghadapi pagi, khawatir tidak akan tersisa rona merah senja untukku
betapa takut diri ini menghadapi esok pagi, jika tiada lagi pelita hati di rongga dada ini…
betapa takut aku mengalami besok sore, takut hanya ada sesal untuk kunikmati dimalam hari

Wahai tuhan yang tidak pantas menerima kesombongan makhluk hina dina ini….
kutak tahu kapan ajal ku…. tetapi kuingin selagi ku ingat pinta ini….
selagi tidak kau cabut petunjuk jalan mu ini….
selagi belum habis nafas ini….
izin kan aku akhiri hidupku dengan rasa takut hanya padamu…
dengan ketundukan dam totalitas hanya untukmu…
dengan sepenggal senyum pengorbanan dalam ridhamu…..

Ya Allah…. ku ingin setiap tetes airmata ini jadi saksi diakhirat bahwa aku pernah mengingatMu…. walau Cuma beberapa menit saja…..

refleksi akhir taon….


Ya diri, kenapa gundah melandamu lagi…. Mengapa sesak ini muncul lagi…
Mengapa resah yang pernah siggah lalu pergi, datang menghampiri….

Ya diri, apakah kelemahan ku tak dapat mengambil ibroh dari yang kualami….
ataukah kelalaian ku dalam ikhtiar…
ataukah ketidak-berkahan amal-amal ku karena begitu mudahnya aku lupa pada Nya.

Wahai diri, mengapa dipenghujung tahun 2006 ini…. 23 tahun sejak kau pertamakali melihat dunia. masih saja kau enggan belajar tentang arti hidup ini….
Mengapa hingga kini, kau diperbudak dirimu sendiri dengan segala pintanya…
Mengapa masih saja enggan yang meraja saat hatimu berteriak… khawatir menjadi sesosok batu tanpa siraman sinarnya, dari sang mentari sabda……
Mengapa masih begitu mudah kau wajarkan hatimu untuk mengharap cinta selain cintaNya, mengemis perhatian selain ridhoNya, mencari sandaran selain belai indah KasihNya….?
Apakah ini yang disebut kedewasaan? Atau kau memang tidak pernah beranjak dewasa?
Atau kau selama ini salah kira, tertipu dan merasa dirimu kini telah dewasa….

Wahai Rabb yang tidak pernah habis pancar sinar kasihnya…. disini ada hambamu…. yang telah sekian lama lalai dan lupa, tidak mengangkat tangan lalu berdoa…. memohon ampunMu dari segala kecongkakan dan kelemahan diri…
Wahai dzat yang tidak pernah tidur dan terlupa, yang menguasai dan berkehendak memberi kesadaran bagi diri ini….
betapa takut aku menghadapi malam, khawatir fajar tak pernah menjelang
betapa takut aku menghadapi pagi, khawatir tidak akan tersisa rona merah senja untukku
betapa takut diri ini menghadapi esok pagi, jika tiada lagi pelita hati di rongga dada ini…
betapa takut aku mengalami besok sore, takut hanya ada sesal untuk kunikmati dimalam hari

Wahai tuhan yang tidak pantas menerima kesombongan makhluk hina dina ini….
kutak tahu kapan ajal ku…. tetapi kuingin selagi ku ingat pinta ini….
selagi tidak kau cabut petunjuk jalan mu ini….
selagi belum habis nafas ini….
izin kan aku akhiri hidupku dengan rasa takut hanya padamu…
dengan ketundukan dam totalitas hanya untukmu…
dengan sepenggal senyum pengorbanan dalam ridhamu…..

Ya Allah…. ku ingin setiap tetes airmata ini jadi saksi diakhirat bahwa aku pernah mengingatMu…. walau Cuma beberapa menit saja…..

Tomorrow 2007

"If we find it tomorrow, we can’t sigh
Because like a boat that opposes the stream
we have to walk straight on"
(
Translation from "Only Human")

Mengapa diri ini begitu mudah lupa… saat begitu banyak waktu untuk mengingat…
mengapa diri ini begitu banyak lalai… padahal begitu banyak waktu menuntut untuk sigap…

Saatnya berpikir ulang, menata hidup, walau pun gak jelas, gak tau harus mulai dari manakah…
saat rona merah sang senja menyapa, mengapa aku tak juga beranjak?
mengapa aku masih terdiam disini, pelan-pelan merapikan jubah lusuhku…
padahal proyek peradaban menanti…
padahal goresan tinta emas sejarah tak dapat menunggu…
sosok lemah yang tertatih-tatih tak mampu berjalan tegak…
Bergerak atau tergilas….

Kapan lagi saat itu datang…
saat dengan penuh cahaya, kutaklukkan kau dunia….
apa yang membuat diri ini tiba-tiba lupa….
apakah lalaiku….
apakah bias pandangku hingga apapun seakan harus lari kukejar…
atau ini hanya mimpi, ilusi sesaat… memapahku…
lalu hilang, meninggalkan kenangan pahit

wahai diri, tak ada waktu lagi…. engkau bangkit dan pergi…
atau Ia akan pergi menjauh… menuju batas cahaya…

lalu saat itu dmanakah kau…..?